Funny. I now have about 15 recordings of myself being dressed in women clothes and underwear, mostly jerking off and coming. Thinking a lot about why men in women's lingerie, traps, transexuals and putting woman's erotic underwear on myself turns me on so much. On one hand I tend to enjoy my own exploded and perverse libido and on the other I wonder if my head is messed up so much with images, with pornography.

I want to explore this, through myself, through lyrics, songs and video. Perhaps it is relevant to some, perhaps not.

stories

I would like this exploration of my intimate perversion, perhaps perversion not in a bad sense, to take shape in expression that is like a story. Words - perhaps with much poetical aesthetics - seem like a very good medium. Videos, carefully edited, somehow obstructing the view, making it non-pornographic. Cuting or flashing to pornographic? Many questions there, but I suppose I would like to find a form that is digestable by most. Autobiographical and fictional at the same time.

(editing a video from 111126 now - the first self video shoot)

(from pears-of-eccentrica-gallumbits tumblr)